2012, When Sex Is More Then Me.

When i look at my life and what i have managed to give into and sometimes even give up, just for a moment of pleasure as pleasure was the only thing i was seeking for as me understanding pleasure was a means to make the other ''feel'' love, the better i can make her feel as desirable and pleasurable,the more she will love me and open up and give more of these juicy life-splashing fun. I will write this for the woman and girls out there who will read this as when man approach you, for you to have an idea what most will be having in their minds, and for you to watch out for the ones you will like, especially those. That is what it is all about the ones you will like, we men are seeking mostly for the ones that will like us.

Let me go into an explanation as in how i was looking and how i was seeking within the female a way to satisfy my desire of experiencing sex in a more so called higher level, which meant in my understanding making sure the woman is wetly open to receive me as in physically so and mentally so, in order for the whole encounter to be optimum.

Lots of questions were raising through my mind as how i am going to prepare myself to be a guy not as many others when it comes to sex. How am i going to make sure that when i do it, it is perfect as in making sure i am not being fooled and told that it was great, when it was not.

So i developed a system through which i could find out for myself if i was being effective enough when engaging in the whole sexual encounter. I have asked and asked many women and listened to many documentaries and read many books to find out what the woman were missing and make lists of what they would like during a ''normal'' sexual encounter.

I have managed to watch them closely, their every move, the way they hold a cup, the way they move their hair,the way they laugh, the way they walk, the specific words they use in a sentence, how they behave alone and with their girlfriends, and when in company of men they are friends with, and men they like, what are the similarities in their body movement when they like men, how they crossed their legs when they are talking to a man they find attractive, what drinks they order, what kind of music they like and how they react to it, is it music one can dance on or music one just sing along. Within all this i even started to admire the female companion for her ability to show so much in her body and the way she moves with elegance, watch how they talk to you or anyone in different situations and different places and in what kind of company of people. I was going into the city and just sit somewhere and look at them shopping, just watching them, i spent lots and lots of hours studying them, the teenagers and the adults females. Then i read books on the female behaviors, both in working environment and when they are attracted to men.


After all this study, i study myself as to perfect myself with the tools i have on my body that i can use when i have managed to get one into having sex with me to use them, which are of course my hands, my mouths(lips and tongue) and of course my dick. I had to make sure that with these 3 things to be perfect in all 3 of them, so with every woman i will train myself, watch lots of sexual educational movies and also of course porn. And within the porn i was watching i preferred lesbian action, because of the sensitivity and the sensuality way of the movement and the whole little by little building up to the explosion. Most men will rely on their dicks most of the time, and those who like sucking will rely on it or have it as preference, but i needed to have all of the tools i can use to make sure that the moment is perfect so i can see the woman get completely horny and with all brakes loose, which was as very empowering to see how the female can get into such an exalted state of liberation and can be in it for a long time and every touch anywhere is like electricity to their fragile body, their silky smooth like skin.


Now lets move to how i did get them into having sex with me, when i know they like me.
As i talk to them,and i see they smile and they can't get their hands off of their hairs, and i deliberately lower my voice as for them to ask me: ''what did you say'' but this question will come out as in whisper, like please caress me with your voice in my ear, so i will do exactly that, my whole body movement will change, my voice low and within base making sure she don't get bored. I would ask them all those wonderful question they like to hear from someone they like, someone they are attractive to. I will ask them in this whisper voice for example: '' why am i so attractive to you..? Is it because of your beauty..?? Is it because you can't stop staring at me..?? what makes me so determine within me as i cannot stop myself to at least say one word that can assure me, that what i feel inside me is mutual..?? And i would just keep asking those questions, and the more they smile and come closer to listen and keep asking me what..?? the more i will ask these questions, because just because they already like me i will make them belief that they are the most perfect woman i have ever met and that they are all i ever wanted. And when my lips are so close to their ears, i will just give them a very light touch kiss and see how they will react, and within and at the moment i have done it, i will ask will say i am sorry for doing that, that it won't happen again, i just couldn't hold myself, but most will not answer and just smile and those that answer will say i don't mind, but their voice tonality will get lower and they will turn and look at me in my eyes with these eyes like telling me: ''please can you kiss my lips now, please''  And i will not hesitate, but i will not rush it, i will first caress their face like exploring it, like it is the most beautiful face i have ever seen in my whole life, and in that moment i am completely lost in this personality that teases, playing it smooth. Till i just hold their face in my both hands and kiss them with all the ''feeling'' i have been building up as in before getting to that one kiss, and i will make sure to work those lips teasing her little by little before i get into the whole french kissing scenario.




to be continued...loll..............................................




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Larry Manuela

2012, My Main Reason for Engaging in Sex with women.

Now i am going to layout in this blog why it is, i was so fascinated with having sex with women.
I will start immediately with the realization i have had as for the reason why i was like that, and even why sex had become like a drug to me later on in my life.

I had an interesting realization regarding myself in and when i am participating in having sex with a woman.
I found out that, i was always looking to bring out in the woman, that gentle care that i could see women have for their little babies.

It was only in having sex with them and treating them with a lot of care, as i would hold a baby in my arms during the act of sex, that i could have this experience of seeing and interpreting the women as melting and becoming like this fragile innocent baby that i can carry through the experience of becoming innocent again in the moment of having sex with her, which stimulated me enormously and i could get very horny by just making her go through this whole experience. Without me making her go through this experience meant to me, that i wasn't reaching her most inner feelings and expression of: ''letting go of'' and ''becoming innocent'' or ''her true expressive nature as a woman. ''

I would read and read and watch all kinds of sexual oriented information/depictions to see what else is there i could learn, so that the next time i can try them out and see if they work practically. Sex became like an obsession to me, like the only way to really find out if what the person is telling you she is feeling for you is real or not. But when the person was not getting all warmed up and as wet as possible, because that was the other thing to, she must get very wet, extremely wet, so that i could interpret that as me doing a good job. without all this i will see myself as someone who has failed her and not made her reach that point of the very essence of the feeling of having sex and becoming this innocent expression as child in and as a woman. And this will make me then just have the sex and get it over with, and it will not get me as horny as i would get when i see the woman becoming all melted and extremely wet and unable to hold herself and when there will be nothing left but to give in to becoming this innocence as the expression as a woman i see in all woman when carrying for their little infants. This to me represented the real expression as a woman,as the expression of care itself, and find it very fascinating to bring it out so i can enjoy it with her through her going through the whole experience of that becoming and experiencing herself as what i perceived as the expression of what woman are or should be constantly.

I would amalgamate so to speak with every touch, with every kiss, and look for all the spots/points on her body where i can have a more intense like overload of energy uprising and when that is spotted, i will molt it and play with it, like move it throughout the whole of her body to make sure that she is totally taken away in her own experience of her energetic uprising and little by little bring it all down to that one point, to the cave of wonders....lol  And there it will be transformed into a river that will be recognizable to me as her body being ready to receive thy staff.
Within the receiving of my staff, the sounds will change, from a groaning to a screaming like sounds in high pitch and the breathing will become long and more intense and the body moves into more curling and  the warmth of the body intensified within all this i will stop abruptly, and move up to her lips where i will kiss them intensely, with all the care i have within me, as to hold her, guide her, lay her down so speak on the pillow of innocence,where i see it as her expressing her true nature as woman and within that kiss that starts like very hungry like kiss, it slows down to a long and passionate free flowing kiss, where this calmness surrounds the whole room and the whole atmosphere becomes like this gentle embrace, the heartbeat slows down and every little movement is intense and the whole innocence of a woman arise within her as i enjoy it through her.

So it is the innocence in woman i was seeking to bring out, that became like an obsession to me, that in most of my sexual encounters were being interpreted by the woman as me being a ''perfect love maker''

So when i look at this now, i can see, that that which i was looking for in another is exactly what was missing in me, that is always the case, what you are looking for to experience through another is that which you yourself are not able or willing to give to yourself.


My Self-forgiveness statements.

I forgive myself for i have accepted and allowed myself to look at woman as outside myself as only through sex as the expression of innocence.

I forgive myself for i have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate the woman using my sexual training talents to bring them into a experience that is being guided by and through me.

I forgive myself for i have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the experience of wanting/desiring/needing a woman to go through the ultimate experience of herself as innocence as for me to get my energetic fix through that.

I forgive myself for i have accepted and allowed myself to feel very satisfied when i would make them reach that point of becoming like innocent again in the moment of sex.

I forgive myself for i have accepted and allowed myself to only enjoy sex when the woman is totally and extremely horny, otherwise i will not enjoy the sex at all.

I forgive myself for i have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate the woman through the touch of my hands, my kisses, and my penis to get her to reach the point where i can have a energetic fix of.

I forgive myself for i haven't accepted and allowed myself to enjoy sex, without the energetic outflow and built up, that i would see as as the only way for me to really get horny and enjoy sex because of being horny.

I forgive myself for i have accepted and allowed myself to totally focus on the woman alone and put myself aside,and just depended on extreme portrayal in order for me to then after that get my fix.

I forgive myself for i have accepted and allowed myself deliberately to manipulate the woman in order for her to get to that stage through sex.

I forgive myself for i have  accepted and allowed myself feeling better about myself when the woman will tell me that i am a perfect love maker.

I forgive myself for i have accepted and allowed myself to even get horny on the innocence of woman.

I forgive myself for i have accepted and allowed myself to knowingly engage in the act just for the purpose to get the woman to reach that what i wish/want/need/desire of them for me.



Corrective statement.

Whenever i see myself in my future sex encounters going into a state where i am not one and equal with and to the woman i am with i stop, breathe and start again till i am one and equal and two physical beings sharing their physical touch together without any preconceived idea or intention, just two physical being engaging in the act of physical touch as sex, and be totally HERE in that moment as one as equals as life.




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2012, Why do we insist that Love is the answer to the world problems..??

As one can see, the LOVE delusion has taken major value shift, or should i say system value. It is NOT life value.
It is being promoted and seen and acknowledge as a very important thing, that men can have(this love) so men can be compassionate and caring. In another word the love is dependent on something else before it can be what it is, or be expressive as for what it implies within this world. 

Just because someone went through an experience where one was in love and the feeling was all nice and fluffy, one believes that, that is what the world needs in order for us to understand each other and come to a giving mode of actions towards our fellow human beings and many other beings without any constrains attach to it.

But let us have look at how this feeling of love really plays out in our everyday living on this planet, in this world, in this reality.

You have the kind of love that you encounter in two people feeling for one another where they built a relationship out of, and all this is always connected as some special feeling of love.
You have the kind of love where you have this feeling of love where it is only for your siblings, your mother/father and some other family members that are related to you from your mother and your father side.
You have the kind of love that is only for those special friends you have that agree with you on some points or many points.
You have the kind of love that you feel for some animal you have as pet.
You have the kind of love that you feel for the country you were born in.
You have the kind of love for the people specifically from that country where you were born into alone.
You have the kind of love where you have a special connotation to the language that you speak in the country you are born into.
You have the kind of love for the food that is being prepared in your country, by your people or your parents.
You have the kind of love where you are looking at the nature of your country and has a special feeling about it, that makes you believe/think that it is yours.
You have the kind of love for some genre of music you like and will give a lot of arguments about that specific music you have that you will term special again, because of the feeling you have to/towards that particular music.
You have the kind of love that is for the work of arts in this world and it will be so special to you that you will only deal with the people who can agree with you on how special this art is.
You have the kind of love for specific genre of movies that you have special feelings to/towards them and one more time find people who agree with you so you can all have this special feeling of love for the whole movie genre.
You have the kind of love where you see yourself as being so important then everybody else, because you have some higher degrees in some education and therefore it puts you in a position of value so you can feel all this special feeling of being special and loving this idea so much.
You have the kind of love where you have a special feeling to/towards your job, because it makes you feel so good when you are doing it and especially when you get paid.
You have the kind of love for going out and having a good time.
You have the kind of love for going on vacation and having a good feeling by traveling all over the place.
You have the kind of love where you help those people in need and it makes you feel so special because you believe that you are doing something about their situation, and it will give you a good position in heaven when you die.
You have the kind of love for your religion where you will defend it with all your might, that your religion is the best religion ever, even when you can see that your religion never brought about a world that is best for all, and not even made you realize that you have to change you and live the change, so the world can become a world that is best for all through all participants.
You have the kind of love that makes you feel so special about a specific sport.
You have the kind of love that is so special for some famous people that you don't even know at all who they really are, but just because you also dream of having a life like that you admire them and secretly be jealous of them. Now if you have a look at all this and you study within  yourself, you will see that the moment the love start to move away from those whom are close to you it starts to diminish in it's potency, it start to become less and has not that much impact on you and you will only say or do something about it, if it threatens your immediate love mates, your family members for instance. So this means that in your love there is a lot of fear to brewing beneath the surface, which should not be so, because love should be love one thing and not two thing in one thing, it cannot have a little bit of fear and a little bit of love, it should be full love, one thing.!!  No division at all..!!

Now i can continue with a lot of those kinds of love that people seem to have for whatever they do or believe. And this love is always special according to them, without realizing/seeing/understanding that this specialness implies in itself separation.This love is not ONE expression as one and equal as life,to the same understanding and same living conditions and respect to/for life as it should be. It is just a feeling a wonderful feeling that everybody is so mesmerized  with/by/through within their own minds. The reality however is that there is nothing special at all about it, because all the rest is saying that they also have this special feeling to/towards someone or something, and it should not even be something that involves specialness. The moment one does that, one has judged within oneself and find that someone or something has more value then another and so deserves to be special, in another word, someone or something has more valuable reason to deserve your feeling of love according to your estimates, because these are not certainties. Many of us have already gone through all kinds of levels of love where the love we felt was not constant and consistent and in circumstances where it was related to relationships in some form or another towards how our feeling of love have failed us dramatically, that should have risen a red flag immediately, but we are so brainwashed and consumed within this feeling of love, that we disregard any and all moments when we know for sure, that the feeling is not to be trusted, because it is based on a believe that one has,that the person one is with will also have the same feeling you are busy experiencing inside yourself, but you just never know for sure even though they may say it to you or even act in a way that looks like they may mean what they say. Because you had already experienced in your life or seen it in people around you how that could be manipulated and how you could fall for what appear to be real as what the person is telling you is true or not and if they truly mean what they say or if their action is a justifiable action or just another action to maintain your believe in them, that they are loving you, so they can continue sucking the energy out of you in whatever form it will turn out to be. To put it in one word it is just to fulfill  their ''selfish purposes.''

In your wants/needs/desires you can notice that you are always projecting them to/towards another. Meaning another must bring you to a point where you can have those feelings within you being experienced, so you become a slave to an outside source in the form of a person or a thing. When all the while the only one who is able to generate and go through the feeling of love is no-one but you yourself alone. It is you who is accepting and allowing the other to be like a catalyst in order for you to ignite within you your own feeling of love. So if you are the one generating the feeling within you, why is it that you are in need of an outside source..?? What is this craving for another for you to ignite the feeling you will experience of love within you alone. You are the one going through that feeling that you yourself generated using your mind. And understand you were perfectly alive before you generated that feeling, you didn't need it at all, maybe there was a wish in you for you to get to it, but it wasn't existent within you till you saw in that one particular person or thing that matched your preferences that you have accumulated throughout your life experience in this world and that you have stored as memory in your mind. So because the feeling of love was none existent within you before it manifested itself through yourself when you saw within the world outside of you someone or something that resembles that which you desire/wish/need/want, makes it an illusion of grandeur.


So bringing it to my heading, love is NOT and will never be a solution to the world problems, because it is a fleeting illusion that is not one and equal in all those who are feeling the love drug, it will remain a judgement for them on who and what they will love or love the most and so others will not be taking part in their love for lots of reasons,but mostly for those wonderful reasons that they will term: '' bad/wrong/negative.'' these are the reasons where love will be absent.



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2012, Are We Getting Hornier..??

As a matter of fact when i look into this world and particularly in my own life i can see that this ''being horny'' is making more ground,meaning; 'it is becoming more and more visible within the youth and also within the adults in this world. When it comes to the youths nowadays they seem to be more open to engage into acceptances of this manifested form  of wanting/wishing/desiring sex.

In spirituality being horny is thought of  as being hungry for love.

So in spirituality it is all about the energy generation that one goes through when having sex, which is being named in this world with a positive connotation called: ''love''
When looked at it in this world in general it's  all about how two people can make one and another reach a point of orgasm, which will mean the release of the energy accumulation and compounded, created within and by the body itself, manipulated by and through the mind in order for the mind to have it's dose of energy to continue it's existence as a mind consciousness system within  the physical human body. It is your mind as the system within you that is requiring energy to exist not your body. When you are eating e.g. it is not really nourishing your body, but is more nourishing the system placements within your human physical body.

So when we are horny what we really want is, to lessen this energy built up within us to make it reach a point where it becomes to much and has to be released and this we call then: ''orgasm''

What we are not noticing and paying attention to is; Where is this energy going to..??
Because it is not going back to the body, if it was so, we would not be calling it a release, it would be an energy expansion, an energy that is being spread throughout the entire body, not for it to just climb all the way to your head and for you to scream: '' oh my god....!!!''   You see that...?? There you go,screaming the energy built up as it reaches and give to the god of your being which is your mind at the moment the necessary boost for it to continue deluding you with the wonderful thoughts/feelings/emotions you are so used to and that you have come to defined as the: '' who i am''

So as we can see people are having tons of sex in this world right now, they are even having solo-sex, which means masturbation, once again to please the mind and serve it with some more energy to keep those pictures coming, like drug addicts, that is what we are when it comes to sex, we are just addicted to it in the way it is being done and for the purpose it is being used for. And no-one is really looking into it, and seeing/realizing that there is something very wrong within all this,just because it  ''feels'' good. Everything related and connected to ''feeling good'' is accepted and allowed in this world without any question. Everyone is even aspiring and desiring to go through the experience of this ''feeling good.''When ''feeling good'' walks hand in hand with ''feeling bad'' they are twins, that don't look alike...lol

So when are we going to share with our own bodies this energy that it creates for us...??  Or are we going to continue mining it till the last drop and becoming less and less of the body each passing day, the part of us that is really real...??

In order for us to reach this kind of energy sharing back to the creator which is our bodies, we have to do a lot of self-forgiveness on the load of pictures and images and words in the mind related to sex, and stay and be one and equal to/as the breath as you, and within this application support and assist the body to spread it's own energy creation so all parts in and as the body experience at the same time their own creation as themselves one and equal, and so you to, experience this real oneness and equality as the sharing of the energy creation of your own human physical body, as one as equal as yourself as your own body.


What i am noticing within my own direct environment/reality over here is that i can see that a lot of people especially young woman/girls are getting pregnant and are having lots of kids. The mind as ourselves is playing a big role in all this using our horny addiction to have more sex and  make the physical produce more humans, so it can continue mining for more energy from the physical for it's existence as a mind consciousness system.



Thanks,



Larry Manuela




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2012, Why am i Self-Responsible...?

Now for most people in this world this is very hard to grasp when one is speaking to someone or a group of people regarding us as humans specifically to be Self-responsible.

Especially when it comes to those occurrences/happenings that are atrocious and abusive and harmful in/to/towards  life as we understand it here on this planet as of right now. 

We tend to immediately  go into a defensive mode to justify the whole occurrences as it is not our place to do/ say something about it, let alone STOP and create another way of existing in our relationships within and as ourselves and within and as ourselves as the world at large so that none of these ''bad/negative/wrong'' things can occur or even exist.

The moment we are HERE on this planet as a living being, is reason and purpose enough for any and each participant to realize that this is where we are and this is our relationship to/towards where we are and we cannot have a relationship(s) that are destructive in anyways whatsoever, because it compromises our own individual existences in this reality and limit our own expressions as individuals and also that of all the rest of expressions of/as life to just express themselves as LIFE.

So let me bring it HERE to SELF as an example for you to grasp, how it is that i as being a participant HERE in this world, in this reality, on this planet makes me accountable for what happens to myself and all the others as self.

I can see starvation going on in this world, and when i see it i know by looking at it, that i would not like myself to be in a situation like that, so when i see that i, myself is unwilling to live that kind of life wherein i must starve, and yet it is HERE in this world where i am also in, it then becomes my responsibility to solve this problem of starvation, especially when i have investigated and see if the EARTH is producing enough food and water so each can eat and drink, it immediately makes me realize/see/understand that i must STOP this, even if no-one else is willing to walk with me in this...!!!

I can see WAR going on in this world and i know that i would not want myself nor the people i have a close relationship with be in a situation where they are being killed for whatever stupid reason, or just to be killed alone for the sake of finding a reason to do so is beyond insanity. So because i am HERE when this is happening on my watch so to speak, i am responsible for the outcome in all these situations of abuse to LIFE.

I can see that our participation within the current monetary system is one of slavery,one of abuse to others, one that promote and instigate separation, one that support limitation, one that support harm to LIFE, one that supports DEBT/SIN, one that support ownership to land and resources of the EARTH as if they are ours to own, when in fact in our arrival HERE, THEY were already HERE, one that supports competition, one that supports inequality, one that supports master and slave relationships, one that supports destruction to the planet, one that supports poisoning of the oceans and rivers and soil, one that supports mining the EARTH till there is nothing more left just to make more profit, one that supports an education that only is in favor of the system as to make money and survive, one that supports pornography, one that supports child labor, one that supports cheap labor, one that support labor in general that is not what is BEST for LIFE, ALL LIFE..........etc etc

So by just participating in the current system as it is, no matter how ''good'' we believe ourselves to be, we are participating in the opposite of what good is, which is ''bad''  and it is more then obvious, it is right in our faces on the television news, in the laws and rules and regulations we make, in just everything, in our very fabric of thoughts,feelings and emotions.

So to be SELF-Responsible is to be: '' the who am i, in what i do about what i see that are NOT what is best for all''

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2012, What We At Desteni Mean With Equal Money.

Now before i continue writing more, let me say that, it is NOT because you hear/see the words: ''equal'' and ''money'' within the words equal money that it means what you BELIEVE it means.
Most people, those who are educated at least a little bit, will tend to compare EQUALITY with socialism or communism. And the word money they will compare it with what they know of knowledge and information about the current capitalistic system that is now in place, which is dominantly rooted and geared in DEBT.

When we at desteni talk about equality, we are not taking about sameness, that everybody have the same thing or we all do the same thing. We are talking about, we all have the same essence and same rights to experience life on this earth, in this reality at the utmost potential without abusing nor harming each other or anything for that matter. Where no-one is more or better or has more value then another, but that ALL are valued as equals as LIFE. Where we share and give our talents to make our experience and all other lifeforms experiences one that is truly worthwhile and enjoyable and dignified. All are in this self-responsible human beings who know how to honor and value life as who and what they are as all that life is expressing itself as and within/without, one and equal.

Now when it comes to money, we are simply placing this word in context of distributing and making the logistic possible and assessable to all on this planet in a more efficient way, so all will be provided for and taken care of the things they need in order to have a life, a dignified life without struggle and where the fear of survival as it exist now in the current system is eradicated. We can say it is a system where our necessities for a living here on the planet as a human in relation to plants and animals, and nature in it's entirety is being managed and taken care of by ourselves in the best possible way, where every individual know their place and know how to take care of themselves and assist and support themselves and each other and everything else.

So when it comes to individuals in the current system attempting and trying to compare ''equal money''  with what they have as knowledge and information about the current system in relation to money, these individuals must understand that they have no point of reference or point where they can compare equal money with, because equal money is a complete new system coined in ONE breath to bring humanity in a living condition of breathing together and where we can start sorting out our differences and our separations within ourselves and within our world at large. So please STOP trying to compare it with ideas that has been tried before and stuff like that or with the current system, because you are just deluding yourself by doing that. There is No point of reference and NO point of comparison, they are none existent. Very simple, because of what i have already said, it has never been HERE on earth before..!!

If you have it within you, and you can grasp what i am saying and you are ready for this, join us and let's work to bring about this equal money, it will be the beginning of a new human, one that is truly for the first time free, and with free i mean free to express life as who you are.


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2012, simplicity in what it means to be in Separation with Yourself.

I am going to put down here in simple words at how i look at this within myself and also within the world outside.

Now, i am going to use practical examples that all of us, can relate to so we can grasp this very easy.

Now at desteni, when we say, ''bring it all to self'' what is it that we mean with those words..??
What we mean is the following: '' you bring your thoughts, emotions and feelings, reactions and denials and everything that happens within you as an energetic occurrence/reactions to yourself, so you are NOT in separation to/towards them within yourself and in so doing project them into your world outside.''

You may be asking the question, but how can i be in separation to those things if i am the one experiencing them..??
The problem is, you are in separation with them, because they are happening automatically, you have no saying in all of it, thoughts, emotions and feelings just automatically pop-up within you and you just follow, you accept them as '' the way i function.'' '' that's the way it is''

Now let us look at a fascinating thing that you probably never stood still and looked at it from this perspective.

I am going to use an example here.
Let's say someone tell you to go fuck yourself, with the whole body language and face expression when saying that to you, that you would interpret as this person using ''bad/harsh language'' towards you. Now because you have given those words and the whole package of what you see and hear value as being a ''bad/harsh language'' you have attached some emotions to to those words, so every time someone use these words and with the body language and face expression and everything that goes with it you will react according to the definition you, yourself have given that particular set of words. Now here is the interesting thing; the moment you react and become emotional, in this case angry, that emotion just popped-up, it just appeared within you automatically,you must understand that it is not you directing that emotion and you making yourself in full awareness become angry. You know..?? like saying: '' o.k. let me allow an emotion as anger come up within me now, and it happens''

So what does this mean...???

It means the following, that you are in separation with your own mind, because your mind is consisting of and existing as thoughts, feelings and emotions. And this mind is accepted and allowed by YOU to run by itself on automatic pilot.It is the directive principle and NOT YOU..!!!

If you have a look at this in self-honesty you will clearly see,how none of your thoughts, feeling nor emotions are directed by you to present and manifest themselves. Can you grasp this...??
So you are then in separation with your own mind, because your mind is running on it's own making decisions and leaving you out of the equation, but yet you would say: '' but it is my mind''

There are almost very very few individuals within this world who are directing their own thoughts, and feelings and emotions, the rest it is all on automatic pilot.

So this is the first step to realize that you are in separation with your own mind as thoughts, feelings and emotions. So now going back to the example i gave a few paragraphs above, in that scenario you will then react in separation with your own mind and project this separation towards this person in the outside world reality, which will bring you into a situation of trouble/conflict and disputes and arguments and can become worst even fighting and killing each other. If you have realized that you are the one accepting and allowing your mind to run a muck, without you having any saying in the matter, you will create this separation in your world outside. That is why we are saying that the world we live inside as in separation with our minds is exactly the same into the world we live outside, because this garbage is being projected into the outside world as well so you will have inside equals outside. Can you see this...?? separation inside is also separation outside in the physical reality, on a larger scale.

So how do we solve this problem..??

We bring the moment we see ourselves going into the reaction in this case of becoming angry, we STOP ourselves in breath, and do not accept and allow that emotion to come up within you and also after that  be projected by you in separation with your own self, into the outside world. This is where you bring it all back to Self and embrace it as yourself and you do self-forgiveness immediately or when you are at home, but stick within and as your breath. Make sure to be very specific in how you reacted and why and so forth, and be absolutely  honest with yourself in exactly how you reacted and let yourself be angry. In this manner you will start to become your own directive principle of your own thoughts/feelings/emotions, and little by little pealing all the layers till you reach a point where no more thoughts and feelings nor emotions can come up by themselves, you are then totally here as you, as the totality of and as you. And then you can grasp and be understandable when you see others reacting like you use to do and also see and understand that they to are in separation with their own minds and also have accepted and allowed themselves to be ruled and controlled by their own minds. In this manner you can be of assistance to them and have compassion and understanding and let them see that they have to bring themselves back to Self, and be the directive principle of their own life, and not let their minds that is separation do that for them.


Now when you are at home by yourself you put all your thoughts/feelings/emotions on a piece of paper or you write down on your computer, doesn't matter as long as you are writing, the physical movement of writing where the body is learning, so you become more effective in your voicing out of what is going on within you on paper, and you be as Self-honest as possible, and you then Self-forgive yourself, and make sure to do your Self-corrective applications whenever you see yourself go into reactions of thoughts/feelings and emotions within you and towards another and the world at large. Don't forget to stick to your breathing the only place you are sure that you are grounded and HERE always, using your common sense.


Thanks.

Larry Manuela

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