just sadness.

Today when at work i looked at the people there and noticed that i felt sadness ricing within me, just because i can see that they are just doing all they can to  survive and as long as their survival is taking care of, nothing is going on, everybody seem happy and content.

All this because they have their steady jobs, and most of them don't even like the job, they are doing it because it is a must..!!!

The sadness i experienced within me was due to the fact that i can see that they are oblivion to what is going on in this world and how one can see that they don't even care, just going about doing what they need to do and that is it, as long as they are so-called save and nothing horrific is going on in their lives or nothing dramatic is going on in their life, all seem fine.

Within all this i also felt tired and bored.
Why...??   because i have reached a certain understanding/realization now and it is growing that we are just doing the same things over and over and over again, even though some parts of it changes but it is just the same game and is just boring.

First we are born.......then we are thought a language and culture..........................then we go to school..............then to higher education.......teenage years...having some sex..............then to work/or having own business,the same thing........it is still working.....get married or live together............in between all that there are the parties and entertainments......and then we grow old ..................go with pension and finally we die.........................this is the main thing we do.

and in between all that you have all the good/bad......right/wrong.................negative/positive... taking place...that keep us lurking and searching for a higher purpose and within  that we are neglecting totally this existence, this reality. And we never do anything to change the programming just mentioned above, it is always the same main scenario.

And this is what i see and i find it boring. Nothing new, even though some will say we are evolving. Even the technology that is evolving is only evolving in the direction of keeping making more profit for those that are in power, never to really change or make our experience and expression the best we ever had or could have.

In order for all this to change we, each one of us need to change ourselves within and without and live that which is best for all as proof to all, that it is possible, and we can do it. I mean we created this mess, so then we can create a solution to.


Self-forgiveness statements:


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself  to feel sadness, judging it in the expressions and behaviors i see in others as me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel tired and bored, because of what i see in this world as belonging/pertaining to human behavior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect tiredness and boredom to the justification of what i see in this world in others as me.






Thanks.




Larry Manuela